Tuesday, September 1, 2009

From My Heart to His

Patience. Probably at the bottom of my virtues. The day I confessed to Mike that I had been thinking about the idea of our family adopting (and that I already had my heart set on it) I half expected him to immediately jump in and confess to me that he totally agreed. I hoped that he would immediately feel the same way that I did. I knew from other conversations that we have had that Mike was not opposed to the idea of adoption, but lets just say that he must not have gotten a copy of the script I had prepared for him!

I'll never forget the look on his face when I told him I was wanting to have a serious discussion about not only adding a third child to our family, but also that I wanted the third child to come from adoption. It was the very same wide eyed - sort of panicked- look he gave me on the day I told him I wanted to go on our church mission trip to Kenya (we leave on November 8th!). I was devastated. I was so sure that this was the next wonderful thing we were meant to do together and he didn't seem to feel the same way.

I could go into great detail of the next 4 months of exploring this idea with him, but in the end all I really need to say is that I truly believe that I am so blessed because every time the Lord places a desire on my heart, my loving husband comes through for me like the knight in shining armor that every little girl dreams of. Though he's not on a shining white stallion (Mike dislikes horses) but in a beat up 1993 Subaru Legacy with his laptop in tow and a look of love that could just make me break down and cry thinking about it. He's not there to rescue me, he's there to support my dreams in a way that only a best friend, best partner and soul mate could understand. The amazing thing to me as well is that his relationship with God must be really strong because he trusts in a way that constantly amazes me. Not only is he doing this for me, and for our family, but for himself as well. My dream is now OUR dream. For those of you who already know Mike, you know that there isn't a better father out there, and our little angel will have a shining knight for her as well.

I am so overjoyed to be sharing this adventure with him. I had to wait patiently for him for 4 months, but in the end all I needed was a little patience.

(Something tells me this will not be the first time patience is a requirement of the adoption process)

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